AEOLUS

“Odysseus, oh most cursed of men, leave now from these shores; never to return again”

Late in his wanderings Odysseus arrived at the shores of the floating Island of Aeolia, land of King Αἴολος. (Which we would spell, Aeolus.) Except there weren’t really shores, since the cliffs of Aeolia were walled with bronze, protection from the constant wind. For in addition to ruling the people of his island, Αἴολος ruled the winds. And those winds were an unruly bunch, numbering not just four, but twelve; sometimes fractiously more.

There was only one place to make a landing and it was like a secret, a narrow cleft in that otherwise impenetrable wall of bronze. Still, Odysseus found it; a fine circular harbor, broad with smooth water and a city rising all around and a gleaming bronze palace well above it. Odysseus arrived worn out, not exactly shipwrecked, though his sails were torn and the ship itself was battered and broken, and his crew dissipated and half starved half mad from nine years of war followed by more at sea. 

But Odysseus was a king. It was obvious in his carriage, in the placement of his chin, in the way he placed his feet with each step. No mere mortal, this was King Odysseus. News of his arrival preceded him. Mounting his way to the palace, dressed in rags, leading his rag-tag crew, the instant he appeared at court, that regal aspect was apparent to Αἴολος.

Αἴολος feasted and feted Odysseus. Each night, for a full week, Odysseus told another portion of the story of his travails. Then, when his story had been told, when the week was over, Αἴολος gave Odysseus a fine ship to take him home, to his own island Kingdom of Ithaca. A befitting gift for a heroic king of the stature and prowess of Odysseus. So with great fanfare, with his crew refreshed and laden with gifts, bestowed with a new ship, fully provisioned, Odysseus again set sail for Ithaca.

Amidst all the fuss, the feting, the going away, it seemed incidental. As a going away gift Αἴολος had taken Odysseus and given him a small, brown leather bag tied tightly with a thong. It was unlike anything anyone, neither Odysseus nor his crew, had ever seen. For although it was very small, it was also somehow very full. As he handed it to him, Αἴολος cautioned that Odysseus should not loosen the ties until, “you set foot on your own home shore”. In this way, he sent him on his way and assured them that their safe voyage was certain for, as master of the winds, he would set just one wind blowing steady at his back, “to loft you homeward”. And so they went, Odysseus and his companions.

But that bag. It was so full. It was so tightly tied. It was more like a vein about to burst than any leather bag.

Almost as soon as the ship cleared the harbor walls, slipping out through the cleft of the bronze cliff, Odysseus fell asleep, relieved after years of war and wandering. And although it was not a long voyage, it was long enough for jealousy and envy to infect those companions until their own hearts had swollen to resemble that small bulging bag. “What is this gift that Odysseus will not share with us, his crew? Haven’t we suffered with him equally? Don’t we …”

And that is how it happened. How Odysseus was blown off course yet again, how his travails were destined to continue, how his companions were certain to be lost eventually. As the home shores of Ithaca were finally in sight, just as the smoke from their home hearths tinged their nostrils, just when the men should have been thinking of the return to their families, their lands, their wives … well, it was then that those jealous mutterings became most ripe and, rife with curiosity, the men untied the bag. Fools! Suddenly, eleven winds were unleashed in a furious storm. The ship was taken tearing and twisting and buried in wave after wave after wave.

Startled now from sleep, Odysseus saw the open, empty bag and, cursing his luck, commanded his thieving crew to be sailors, to right the ship. At his word, they cut the shredded sails down, jettisoned the heaving cargo, their fine guest gifts, and in this way their kingly captain saved them all from certain death. But hadn’t he, in the midst of storm, glimpsed, briefly, the near shore of Ithaca, the smoke rising from the chimneys of his own palace? That could have been a dream. He never would know. And they, the crew, his doomed companions, they were too timid to ever admit. Though he did, later, ask. For as the storm cleared, they saw that they were again beneath the bronze Aeolian cliffs. Bedraggled again, faces burned and crusted with salt again, sails torn and cut again, another mast battered, and their guest gifts gone and their stores lost to the deeps of the sea. It was as if they had never left. But they had. Returned to port, they mounted the citadel approaching the court of King Αἴολος.

But seeing them again, Αἴολος was not pleased. No. He blustered with fury. Granting no explanation, Αἴολος, the wind himself, bellowed, “You, Odysseus, oh most cursed of men, leave now from these shores; never to return again”!

And though to say so would have been dangerous, some who were there are said to have said that this was the only time, the once, that wily, skilled, well-spoken King Odysseus scurried.

~jwl
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2014-0712

CASSANDRA

Panis et circenses: two minutes before slaughter ushers forth from the horse; everyone is focused on the stupor bowl.

We’re all 
going over the wall.

All pregnant with horror
from the rape few felt or saw.

Hectored, our collective corpse is bound
to be dragged around & around town.

Unlike sticks & stones, bad words now
have the power to end it all.

~jwl
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2016-11/18-19-20 & 2019-02/20

CATULLUS 05

Urgency of Passion

Let us live my Lesbia
& let us love, & consider
All the rumors
Of crotchety old men
Centless!

Suns fall able to rise again,
But for us
         once this brief light falls
Is one 
         night,
One night that we will sleep, endlessly.

Give me kisses a thousand, a hundred
Then a thousand again, then a second hundred
& then another thousand, continuously
& a hundred yet.Then when we’ve made so many thousands
Our kisses will confuse them
Lest we know, or lest
Someone fix us
With the evil eye,
Knowing how many the kisses

~jwl
https://www.jonwarrenlentz.com

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1975 – 1979 & 2016-0725-27 & 2019-0303

RAGE

A Verbal Torrent

NB [Nota Bene]:
When I first began this blog, I stopped.
Abruptly.
Why? 
Because I simply could not deal with the

emotions
raging through my psyche.
It took several years of dancing
with the notion
of writing
“Autumn of the Species”
before I could return to the project.
That was several months ago ...
This piece,
“Rage”
is the first, & dominating, entry
from that raw beginning.
~jwl / 2019 0404

Holidays and birthdays are the worst. Although just about any other day can be equally depressing. All it takes is an unchaperoned thought, a minor memory that triggers a landslide into the caboose of some better forgotten abuse. And then you’re entrained, rattling along some memorial track.

But, holidays and birthdays. What used to be signposts, monuments of expectation sprinkled through the year, days to which, as children we always looked forward, days of congress among cousins, aunts and uncles, the surviving grandparent, and others … are now impossibilities that would require both an act of Congress and, likely, the national guard wielding pepper spray, sticks and shields.

Whereas Christmas was celebrated in the present, that anxious unwrapping of some mysterious hopefully expected gift, now that same helliday is warped in memories better left forgotten, wrapped in anxiety about what can never be healed but maybe, at best, annealed into a stronger blade, mokume, with which to slice into the moment to create a clean presence unlittered with the cans and old shoes that trail behind each day, wedding heart and mind, litanies of abuse, a profane bloody fouled putrid red caboose.

Yes, you read that right. Correct. I hate holidays, birthdays, memories. I have jettisoned all connection with members of family, dismembered all relationships with lying former wives and that throng of women once considered, “lovers.” Sister, brother, father, mother, son. I speak to no one.

As I said (screamed, rather) once, at the conclusion of one particularly ugly mugging, as I ran away with the exquisitely wrought knife that had been stabbed into my back. A blade that cut so sharp that I never felt or understood until it was much too late, a blade encrusted with the intoxicating dazzle of diamonds, pearls of manipulation that had grown from tiny irritants, grains of untrue sands … until finally I’d been sliced nearly in half, divided against myself, running forward merely to keep my corpse together, and to counter-balance the weight of that enormous slicing … I ran, running, speeding towards an ill-defined future of transformative transfusions, a gamut of alcohol and dope, ran, laughing, a maniacal giggle, a moron entombed in a coffin built for running.

Furtive. Scanning for anything hopeful, a thing funny to say, I exclaimed racing away in a large nameless circle, a man-piece on that perverse board game, life, of which Monopoly™ is but a pale misrepresentation, “Ha-ha, I got your knife.”

I did not pass go. I did not collect two hundred. I went back into my life. I searched for my wife. Or, I went back to work, returned home with the money, paid our bills and (every night) got back into bed with my life. And every morning I donned my armor, went out like a knight, back to the slaughter for what I believed was right.

Except one day, he was cut out off himself. Excised. Like a tax, the burlap busting with my bullion slashed open and the tacitly agreed coin of the unreal realm splattered my blood down the steps and into the pure streets of greed. And as he lay there, dying to himself, there was a waft of memory, a whiff of something done to please… “mother?”

Yes. Then. “I got it. I understand.” Finally. There is little to look forward to. And much regret. One moves forward as quickly as possible. Running to escape the label of “walking wounded” running to get nowhere from every-insufferable-where-else. Running to avoid the candles and the cake. And that dead man, me, got up and ran, single-handedly honoring all truth, beauty, fealty and obligation. Then we ran, a ferociously brave egg,  shell and sell and yoked to jokes, into the hard coded light of a difference engine. Years of training. Another pair of tracks expanding into the future, while narrowing into the past, both ways sharpened by the knife edge knife end of infinitive pointlessness. We are all doomed.

Until, finally, running is no option. And you turn around and look the past in the face. Push away the cake the candles, the wrappings the glitter. Balloons bursting with methane. Grasping the moment to glimpse what is no longer real. To obtain a shred of what is called, “sane” knowing (gladly) that nothing ever was as it seemed, as it was sold, really, truly, the same. But shame.

To finally turn and think, “Life is the bitch. Oh, yes I have your knives in me. Let me be your voodoo doll. Thank you for that. For these pearls of inestimable wisdom. Oh, and Happy Birthday, bitch!” But unable to even say it, unable to utter in childish sing-song voice “Ha-ha, ha-ha-ha, I’ve got your kn-ife!”

It is, or becomes, as the unlettered so often say, “A mute point.”

~jwl
https://www.jonwarrenlentz.com

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2014 0626, 0714 & 2019 0404